Stop and Listen

Stop trying to be positive all the time. “Then I’ll go crazy and be surrounded by darkness!” How do you know? When you have a day or two to yourself, just let the awful, exhausted, depressed,  sad feelings come up, and cry it out if you can, for as long as it takes for something new to come in. It’s trying to, but your insistence on denying your dark feelings isn’t letting it.

Stop comparing, with anyone else or with who you think you should be. “But how will I do anything, then I’ll just do nothing!” Really? You’re doing something now, by listening to me.

Stop trying to impress people. Stop needing to be understood. Just express who you are, just to yourself, or to the world. Or don’t.

“Ok, now what?”

You’ll be happy in moments and then you won’t. You’ll suffer in moments and then you won’t. You’ll fall into despair and then something will change. You’ll be renewed with faith, then you’ll start yet again.

Deaf to our own whisper that knows, drowned out and hidden, in webs of contradiction, by everyone else’s voices, and the false critics of our own, incessant talking and asking, criticizing and doubting, stifling the wisdom that’s hidden in plain sight.

The whisper waits, inside the heart, outside the barriers, for a break in the thunder.

And there it speaks, breathing relief, into the form that houses it’s grandeur:

“You don’t know the power of You, but I do,
I am here and I will never leave,
in every thought and every feeling, I know who you really are,
you don’t need to be anything else at all,
it’s ok, be afraid, discomfort won’t kill you,
it’s ok, go insane, you won’t really, I’m with you,
your Light is brighter than a million Suns,
if you die in this instant you have already won,
however you are is perfectly You,
When the moment arrives, you’ll know what to do,
it could be tonight, tomorrow or next year,
but you’ll always be free, I will always be here.”

You let go and accept, “thank you, I feel you near”

The whisper responds “now, here’s an idea…”