Today, in an instant, the voice that had been whispering “go to that event in LA, you know you want to, have an adventure, screw the fear and the so-called reasons why you can’t”, sat up, took charge and, after a few months, it finally commanded, “GO!”. I respectfully answered, “ok, thank you.”
I had been shooting that voice down left and right with doubt. Those doubts are part of the story of who I *think” I am. But who I am is always changing. Who I am now knows more, trusts more, I am not the person I even was yesterday. Today, I chose to be the person I want to be. I decided to make her voice louder than the doubts I’ve had my whole life.
Yesterday I’d decided I wanted to use this blog as a document. I wanted to have proof later, show a record. I am going through a change of massive proportions. I was going to write about it but the unfolding was happening so fast I didn’t want to stop it by even trying to put it into words. I just kept listening and watching the movie of my life unfold. It told me secrets yesterday that I hadn’t heard before. And it was giving me little clues, little pebbles on the Path. I followed them.
And today, I am taking a leap of faith. That is the person I’ve dreamed of being. It’s not out there in the future. It’s here. It’s already arrived. And I shall be telling you all about this journey in the coming days, weeks, months.
There’s twists and turns, it’s blurry up ahead, you’re not sure what’s real or a mirage, and there’s a steep fall to your right. Stay on the road and keep adjusting your vision. The way will be made. It’s right there in front of you. You are it.
Lia Wilbourn 